more things to spend my money on

the full cup
1 new bra $52.00
1 sports bra? $52.00
urbanoutfitters.com
jaguar v-neck: $28.00
foxy crew tee: $28.00
tokyo map pe v-neck: $28.00
skull sketch deep v-tee: $28.00
rugby stripe v-neck tee: $28.00
mexibirds deep v-tee: $28.00
tattoo dragon v-neck: $28.00
heraldry v-neck tee: $28.00
eye of the beholder patchwork tee: $38.00
watercolor peacock tee: $28.00
insight my town tee: $14.40
DOE geode splash: $28.00
psychadelic horse v-neck: $9.99
truly madly deeply angel wings tee: $28.00
ghost tee: $24.99
truly madly deeply cosmos tee: $19.99
the beautiful ones four corners tee: $14.99
bdg kanga pocket top: $19.99 (red)
kimichi blue smocked top: $9.99
kimichi black gossomer tee: $14.99
silence and noise cutout hoodie: $39.99 (navy)
nylon button hoodie: 19.99 (magic mountain)
silence and noise striped sweater hoodie: $39.99
vans
any

things to spend my money on

a new chi straightener: $159.99 ($153 with purchase of a card at Trade Secret)
third hold pierced: $25 (appx.)
3 cartilage piercings in one ear: $25 each (appx.)
1 cartilage piercing in other ear: $25 (appx.)
Coheed & Cambria tickets: $25
Brand New tickets: $25
Against Me! tickets: $15
"greta lace trim cami" urbanoutfitters: $19.99
the only arms we need tee urbanoutfitters: $28.00
damsel venetian stripe winterlife tee urban outfitters: $28
neon lines tee: $14.99
lux basic long cardigan: $48.00
lux layer up cardigan: $48.00
a new pair of shoes: $55

my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth

I wish I could keep Nomad in my life forever. I wish my homelife would change. I wish I could move out. I wish I had a larger room so I could rearrange it more comfortably. I wish school would start because I can't wait to start learning again. I wish I had more friends right now. I wish my hair was long again. I wish I was an artist. I wish writing wasn't what I ended up being good at, I wish I was good at something I could enjoy. I wish I could break my addiction to Charles Bukowski books because I feel that if I did, I'd be happier. I wish I could buy an umbrella cockatoo, a new kitty, a new puppy, and have my own place to keep them all. I wish I could take all of my animals now and put them in my own place and get them away from this hell. I wish I knew how to tell people what I really thought all the time. I wish I knew how to customize my new blogspot. I wish I could handwrite as fast as I can type because I would rather write in a journal. I wish I didn't always work nights becuase I have more energy at night time and I would rather use that time to clean my room. I'm glad I got my license back today, and I'm glad everyone in DMV was nice to me. I wish my cat would stop throwing up. I wish all my animals were healthy. I wish I was healthy. I wish I could just live on my own little island, but more of a country, with all my animals living freely and I would sleep on a hammock outdoors instead of a bed stuffed in a house. I wish I could travel. I wish Hakan and Mehmet weren't going back to Turkey. I wish I could meet more Hakans and Mehemets. I hope I remember them forever. I hope Nomad stays with me at least until I'm in college because if he didn't I would be too depressed to even enroll in a school. I wish I was old and accomplished enough to have a baby because my baby would be my best friend but I'm not. I wish Katya and I didn't lose touch. I wish me and the rest of the world didn't lose touch. I wish I could be friends with everyone regardless of black and white but not everyone wishes the same thing so it doesn't always work out. I wish I had more people to talk to so I didn't have to talk to myself via internet. I wish I could go outside and run around but I'm not confident enough to run in front of the neighbors. I wish I could exercise more and play more and relax more but I only have time for work because I'm basically supporting myself. I wish someone understood me so that I didn't always sound like I was complaining but Matt always just says he's sorry. I wish Lauren and I stayed best friends forever and I wish I could move in with her right now. I wish I had the guts to post everything I want to say even though I know no one will probably be reading this.